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4-7-8

 


lately I've been sending my friends warm words. 

'fighting'

'you got this'

'it's okay, take your time to rest a bit'

'please take your time, everyone has its own pace, we'll run out of breath trying to catch others. slowly, slowly ok? you'll get there'

'don't forget to take a deep breath, if you're feeling nervous you can do the 4-7-8 breathing method.'

but in reality, I'm the one who needed it the most.

it's short of therapy, to tell people kind and heartwarming words.
by that means I'm constantly letting myself exposed to self affirmation.
which is good.
it's good.

isn't it?


-num

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