Conversation with the sea

Dashi Sijakhamyeon Dwaeyo

B: Jadi bagaimana perasaanmu?

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A: Aku.. ingin berhenti. Aku ingin menyerah. Rasanya seperti aku seorang yang terperangkap di masa ini, sedangkan semua di sekitarku terus bergerak maju. Hanya aku sendiri yang tertinggal. Aku lelah mengejar yang tak terkejar, aku ingin menyerah.

B: Jika lelah, kamu boleh beristirahat. Terkadang yang kita butuhkan adalah rehat sejenak, bukan kata menyerah. Semua orang memiliki tempo yang berbeda-beda, kau tak bisa membandingkan tempomu dengan orang lain, itu hanya akan menyiksa batinmu. Satu hal yang kuharap terus kau ingat, ketika tak bisa bergerak dan merasa terperangkap, kau selalu bisa memulai kembali. Perlahan. Dari awal.

november, 2021

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