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I used to live here back in 2017, but then moved away to a place near my college in 2018, for one year and a half only and came back to my home, where I grew up. So I've been a nomadic these past 5 years. 3 months of living here, a lot happened, but I have to say, everything seems to get better

Far away from home and family, I feel less exhausted.
Sometimes I do miss being crowded with their loud voices and nagging and jokes and laughter..
But I feel better this way.
Though I know that I need to be away from a bunch of people, it's fine to meet them every once in a while.

Moving away from a place where I fall in and out of love, it can get lonely at times,
But I've never been so at peace for this long. It was a hard decision to live here and leave my things in my sweet lovely room, but, I know that I have to leave, I need to live alone. My soul needed it. This is what I've been waiting for.

The end of August is four days away already, I swear the sky seems so much brighter.
Gloomy windy rainy weather is my favorite, but can't lie, the blue sky captivates me.

Lately It's been very busy, but I enjoyed every minutes of it. After feeling like nothing but a speck of dust in this world for quite a while now, i somehow, find my place here. Hope it's not too fast to say this, but I do love joining projects like this. Talk about environmental issues, indigenous people, woman empowerment, conservation, but mostly.. Blend with nature, where my heart feels the most alive.

Though I want to be away, strangely there are familiar faces I hope to see around for some time. People whom I learned from about committing to rise awareness about climate change, trying to create a better environment with the fullest effort I've ever seen. Through this, not only we talked about environment, but also deep personal things without being shady towards one another, and that's truly what I cherish. That I got to meet beautiful souls amongst the negativities the world has to offer.

I tried to stop questioning things, I still do, but not too much.
And somehow, things begin to fall in places like it belongs there from the start.
Maybe it's good to keep the balance between caring too much and ignoring too much. I just hope that fate will stop giving me too much dramas from every other side of this world, it's not too much to ask for right? hehe..

I want to write more, but now I'm getting really sleepy
Oh and I feel like all my writings here are like open letters for my readers, my loyal readers, yeah it's out of topic I know, I always wanted to say this.

That's it, sleeptight <3

-num



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  1. AnonymousSeptember 4, 2022 at 11:53 PM

    what a real infp thing , stay slay baby 😍 the world full of suprises that will made u questioning lots of stuff .. take some break and recharge ur self if you need to .. sending loves 🤍

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    1. moonarSeptember 5, 2022 at 4:57 AM

      heyyy my infj sisterrr wkwkwk thankyou so much for your warm words, hope to see you around and we should do yoga together btw uwaaa!! Sending all the warmest loves and hugss to uu beautiful ♡♡♡♡

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  2. AlinSeptember 9, 2022 at 3:18 AM

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  3. AlinSeptember 9, 2022 at 3:22 AM

    Your writings are become better and better num. You put your every heart into this. I can feel it through your beautiful words. I can feel warmth here and there yet it feels like you are finally breathing the fresh air. Congratulations to you to begin your new stage. You always deserve all good things in life Num. You really do.

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    1. moonarSeptember 11, 2022 at 8:01 AM

      NOT ME CRYING OVER THIS HUWEEE ALINNN-CHAANNNN Thankyouu sincerely for noticing the warmth i tried to pour through this writing, you always be that supportive chingu of mine that i feel super grateful to meet on my early college days. You deserve all the happiness and wonderful things in life, i love you lin ♡♡♡♡♡

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