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19.11.2022


I think it was a quite simple day. A normal lazy day that i adore so much.

Woke up at 5 a.m., fell back sleep, and finally totally awake at 7:36 a.m.

Fed my beautiful cats, Luna and Navy by 8, opened my laptop, not to work, just checking any good movies to watch on lazy weekend but soon got distracted so I laid on my bed scrolling through Youtube and Pinterest for 2 hours straight. And so I decided to tidy my room a little bit, changing sheets, broom all over the house, guess what? I got super excited cause I found my lost capo! It was under my bed all this time, goodness. Well thank God, I don't have to buy another one.

Then I sat down a little bit, cooling down my sweaty ass in front of fan, zoning out while Utha L’s Esokkan Masih Ada replaying in the background. Then I decided to watch Jennifer’s Body and eat some snacks too, obviously. Practically it was my breakfast. Beng-Beng Max with nuts in it I think, new innovation or what-so-ever it is. Oh I had orange too, sweet, but uh, I chewed the seed a couple of times, accidentally. Ew. I finished the movie by 1 p.m., and it’s 3/5 for me, not my cup of tea, but I have to admit Meghan and Amanda were super hot, I shipped them, no kidding.

I was starving, so I had lunch. It was Daun Labu, my zupa fav dish. Yea, it tastes heavenly lol, for real, I love it so much. Then I got lazy again, rollin’ on my bed, read some cool ass quotes on pinterest, editing video, listening to this dope Vietnamese song called ‘Chet Trong Em’ by Thinh Suh.

That song reminded me of my sad-empty-depressive days during ‘skripsian’ even though it was my first time hearing the song, but for unknown reasons, it gave me the similar emotions I got as I was riding my motorcycle through ring road at 4 p.m. heading to my old house, and the salty air touches my skin softly.

It’s weird how sounds, images, and scents could bring back specific memories flashing in your eyes and for a second it almost feels like you live in that moment again. Beautiful, I think. And painful, sometimes.

It’s 5 p.m., so I rushed over my cats and fed them, realized we’re running out of cat food so I dressed up and headed out for shopping. One hour later, I stopped by at KFC for dinner and here I am, writing this because I forgot to bring my earphone, cause If I did I could’ve finished Jojo Rabbit I watched a while ago at home but didn’t finish it right away cause I gotta go shopping.

There are a lot, a lot, of people out here. I forgot it’s satnight till I connect the dots why is it so crowded tonight. Um, with lovebirds in almost every corner. Super awkward, cause I can hear their lovey-dovey tone while talking to each other. It’s cute tho, but honestly I better not forget bringing my earphone next time. Anyway, luckily, I didn’t bump into anybody I knew. I got zero energy to have a chit-chat.

Overall, I think it’s a slow day. In a good way. I’m being lazy and productive at the same time. I discovered cool ass song also.

And uh, I can’t finish this O.R Burger, I’m super full right now, Alhamdulillah. Guess I have to bring it home, probably will eat it while finishing Jojo Rabbit.

I’m just really grateful that today, everything happens slowly, and I can enjoy every minute of it, with no deadlines, no rush, just lempeng. Plus, I’m not melancholic today. Weird.

So thanks for reading!

Xoxo,

-num.

 

 




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